happenings

Ugh! There has been a lot going on during the last several weeks since I've updated this blog. Too much, really to get into it all, so I'll just highlight the important facts. Our "pre-baby party" happened on January 19th and it was a fabulous event. Belinda planned the entire thing and the LGBT center was decorated beautifully and was full of all of the wonderful people we adore. Laura and Lesley made it out from NYC, both of our moms were present, Angela and her family made it down, along with all of our dearest SF friends. I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful celebration. Allie even had the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence bless our unborn baby, and it was truly a San Francisco event unlike no other. The after-shower party at The Mint ended the evening in karaoke splendor. Many thanks to everyone for making this a very special day for us.

The day after the shower, we prepared to leave for Susanville to attend my grandmother's funeral. This winter has indeed been a time of loss in many ways, and I grandma was one of the most important people in my life. She played a huge role in raising my sister and me, and she will sorely be missed. After a long battle with Parkinson's and cancer, she passed away on January 11th. I am glad that she is no longer suffering and I take pleasure in picturing Jackson sitting on grandma's lap somewhere in my mind.

Pregnancy continues to progress smoothly, although life is getting much more difficult. I think I experienced Braxton Hicks contractions for the first time last night (all I know is that I was in pain, and a knowledgeable mother told me that must have been what it was). Sleeping is tough, as is walking and getting dressed. It's hard to believe we only have 5 more weeks to go. I had a dream over the weekend that we were having a girl. Not sure what that means...

Last week, I had a minor freak out after seeing the film The Business of Being Born It is a documentary about hospital vs. home births and it made me feel like we are making a huge mistake with going to a hospital (especially one with a high c-section rate, like CPMC). Most of my fears have subsided and it made Damon and I realize we are really going to have to advocate for what we want during this birth. I haven't thought too much about the actual act of delivery yet, but I'm looking forward to taking our birthing class next weekend. I don't feel too freaked out about things (yet) and I really want to continue to have faith in myself that I can do this.

Okay, that is all I can get out for now. I need to eat or sleep. Here's to a new regime change in Washington. Hope y'all voted!